Tomorrow

I haven't had internet access most of the day. Horrible! lol I had plenty of other things to do, so it wasn't really a big deal. But it's kind of like when they tell you not to eat or drink for a test or operation and then all you want to do is eat and drink. And you swear you have never been so hungry or thirsty - ever! It's the idea that I couldn't get online, not that I really needed or wanted to. Anyway, as you can see, I managed to survive the day!


Tomorrow I have a dr's appointment. Joyous rapture! After so many years,  it's just.... ugh. I'm seeing the endocrinologist aka the diabetic doctor. That always makes me feel anxious. You never really know what kind of news you will get or how they will react to it. It's a new doctor so that throws things a little out there. On the other hand, it IS a new doctor so at least I no longer have to see my old doc. When I would mention him to people - regular people as well as medical personnel - they knew who I was talking about and had opinions of their own. They were never good. I "lovingly" refer to him as Dr. Poopyhead if that tells you anything.


Anyway, back to the important part of this story. New Doctor. I saw her for the first time for an initial consult, then came back in 6 weeks and my progress looked good. I've been 'cut loose' for 3 months so we'll see how it goes. The thing that bugs me about these doctors though is that they are all a bit stuck. Medically speaking, I am weird. A lot of the time my body does not go by the norm. The rulebooks don't apply. Sometimes it does, but time and again it has not. I try explaining that to these specialists, but they don't get it. They seem to think that if you do x, y, & z, everything will work out as it should. And then when it doesn't, they treat me like it's my fault. Something I did or did not do.


That's where the anxiety really comes from. I don't know if things are going to turn out great or if they will be iffy and I really do not enjoy the way any thing "off" gets passed on to me. All you can really do is take the blame, even if it isn't anyone's fault. At any rate, I'm hoping since this is a new group and it is early in the game that things will still go smoothly. In the meantime, at least I have my interwebs back. Victory shall be mine!